Why Cant I Find The Way To Becoming Happy Again?

It’s understandable you have been badly affected by this situation. I’m sorry you feel that nothing is working. Maybe you could benefit from counselling? It sometimes helps to talk to an outsider that is not directly involved in the situation.
Presuming you are in the UK, you can access counselling through a number of ways:
- Your GP
- Through school/college
- Local charities or churches
- http://www.getconnected.org.uk/
As well as talking about your issues, it’s also important to try and look after yourself physically and emotionally. Try to eat healthily and spend some time doing something you enjoy, maybe a sport or hobby? I realise it is sometimes hard to look after yourself when you feel so down, so don’t beat yourself up over that. Just try to accept that how you are feeling is understandable considering the situation. You definitely did the right thing by telling someone about your boyfriend.
I wish you all the best.

You’re probably not going to like my answer, but here it is: these things take time. You have been through an enormous ordeal that has rattled you to your core.
Now you are faced with picking up the pieces and moving beyond it, while at the same time processing what has happened. I’m glad you have taken the opportunity to speak with your friend and family. It is important that you continue to do this as you recover.
It sounds like you have a good relationship with your father. Perhaps you could ask him to help you get some professional help to deal with this crisis. This was traumatic for your boyfriend, but it was also traumatic for you.
One thing I can tell you with absolute certainty is that nothing lasts forever, and things are always in a state of flux. This will pass. It may not seem like it right now, but it will pass.
And as time passes, you will gain more perspective on the situation. I understand all to well the internal turmoil that makes you stark raving mad as you question every word, every detail, every option. As difficult as it may seem to you, try to make some sort of schedule for yourself that includes pleasurable activities such as hobbies or sports. Things that will take your mind off what has just happened, if only for a few moments.
Each day is a new beginning, and slowly but surely you will be on the path to recovery from this. You’re a tough cookie, I know you’ll do well!

Take a deep breath and be with yourself quietly for awhile, just be… the feelings and thoughts will come up for you to deal with , if you just let them….
If you need counseling around this, than get it, because this is a lot heavier issue than you are acknowledging.. almost like you are still stunned, or something.. the body and mind will protect you until you can deal with it all…
Here is a free basic healing method, and a support site…
where you can talk anon

This sounds like depression. I know because I suffered from it for many years, until I recognized it and took care of it. This typically happens during times of loss … or being overwhelmed. Treat yourself with lots of care and don’t be shy about seeking help – which takes guts.
ps. If you’re depressed, stay away from the bible. I made that mistake many years ago, and it made things much worse. The bible is a very heavy book and a bad read when you’re feeling down. You won’t find the answers to unhappiness/depression in the bible. If you really want to read the bible, then wait until you feel better.
Take care!

That is a pretty traumatic situation. You need to take time to process it, and be able to admit to yourself that it was a big deal. Allow yourself to react to it, and maybe talk to a counselor so they can help you deal with your emotions and reaction to what happened.

read the bible